I see God

God did the irreversible on my birthday.  I am so excited that I just have to share it with you all.  I woke up really disturbed.  Was very heartbroken and sad because my father's birthday is today, the 4 th.  I was his gift many years ago.  I never grieved over the lost of my father, for I was happy that he did not have to suffer no more.  Well, it just so happened that I watched Joyce Meyers that morning and she had mentioned how we cannot let our emotions rule our lives.  So I made a decision I was not going to let my feelings ruined my day.

My husband and I went to the show and saw Shutter Island.  It's a true story about criminals who were mentally ill.  By the time I walked out I was so grateful that I was born during this era and not back in the 50's when they were doing lobotomies.  I was also  grateful that I had a husband who loved me enough to get the help that I needed, so I did not harm myself or others.

That night, we had the children over and I had taken some pictures.  All my children were standing next to me.  I finally accepted the fact, that they had truly forgiven me and loved me dearly.  What a gift.  Not only that, but Matthew who claims to be an agnostic, was looking through the Bible!  We were able to discuss Jesus first miracle and he even knew what the Master at the wedding had said about the wine!  I was so excited  that I told him "the word is in you and it will come forth some day when you really need it, like it or not!  Rachel remarked "Mom that's the creepiest thing you have ever said!"  I was so encourage.  When they had left that night Rachel had given me the hardiest hug she had ever given to me in my life.  She is a very reserved person.

To top the day off.  I got a phone call at 7:30.  It was from my younger brother, who has never called me on my Birthday!  I was so blessed!  I felt so loved by the end of the day that no gift can place the love I received that day.  God is so good to me!

On the following day, I went to Sara's house and she had the T.V. on a children 's Christian station!  I am seeing God, working in the life of my children and I am excited.  Oh yea, Rachel is going out with a Christian boyfriend, I just found that out too.  Can you beat that for a Birthday?  My kids were all brought up in the church but had abandon God when I became ill and now I'm reaping what I had sown.  Glory to God!